Comedy is pretty much the one thing someone could tell me I’d have to do and I would immediately feel nervous.

Walk the plank of The Jolly Roger.  No problem.  Speak for three hours without notes at an expo.  No problem.   Ask me to say things which would guarantee people who paid $50 would expel uncontrollable laughter and I start to doubt my abilities.  Watch me as I pace back and forth and feel the room spinning.

Suffice it to say, lately I haven’t had the urge to try to book any stand up comedy gigs.

I think comedy is an art. And comedians who are amazing at it deserve respect.
So when people tell me something that makes me laugh. I do just that. Laugh.  I don’t keep walls up and worry about how my laugh sounds or what anyone will say. I just laugh.

Tonight I was told I don’t have a genuine laugh. Was told the sounds that came out of my mouth as I laughed sounded like a cackle… a fake cackle.  I don’t understand why anyone could see someone on the phone smiling because of what the other person was saying and laughing so hard they started to cry and accuse that person of being fake.

I’m not fake. Nothing about me. And certainly not my laugh. 

I’ll be honest, I did get very annoyed last night after being told such a hurtful comment.  But then I realized.  Clearly some people don’t have very true friendships or relationships at all and it’s easier to say something insensitive and unkind than work on what they feel is lacking in their life. They must feel its better to attack than to be nice. 

Great comedians who have been known to make me laugh a nice genuine laugh –

Lisa Lampanelli
Lewis Black
Wanda Sykes
Joan Rivers
Jay Leno
Kathy Griffin
Jerry Seinfeld
Jane Condon                                                                                             Margaret Cho
George Lopez
Arj Barker
Josh Blue
Katt Williams